That Was Us, Then
Written by: Shawn
Rated: PG
Disclaimer: If I don't own PR. I wish I did. Then I'd be rich. *smile*
Summary: On a warm, starry night Kim receives
an unexpected visitor.
Spoiler/Timeline: Tommy lost his Green Ranger powers for the last time in
MMPR episode "Green No More" which aired 9/28/94. He returned as the White
Ranger less than a month later in the episode "White Light," which aired on
10/18/94. I want a little more distance since he departed to have taken place so
assume that White Light in early December 1994 and Tommy was gone for about two
months. In addition, Trini returned from the Peace Conference five months prior
to the start of this story and assists the Rangers, but is not a Ranger herself.
See Authors Notes.
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Authors Notes 1: Tommy and Kim are both 17 years old and this story picks
up about ten days after Tommy returned to become the White Ranger. T/K never
officially dated and now that he's back, both are sort of trying to feel each
other out again.
Authors Notes 2: With all due respect to the shows characterization,
expect T/K to sound a bit more realistic here. Nothing out of character, but
just a little more appropriate for their age and the responsibilities they've
lived for quite some time now.
Authors Notes 3: This could become a short series. We'll see.
Special Note: This story was inspired by Mili and Pink-Green-White-
4ever, whose work has recently reminded me why I liked the PR's teen years so
much. Thank you both. *bows before the talented authors*
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Love involves a peculiar unfathomable
combination of understanding and misunderstanding.
--Diane Arbus
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The home of Kimberly Hart
The backyard
Friday, December 12, 1994 9:30 PM
Angel Grove, Ca
"We're old."
"We're only 17, Trini. We're not old."
"How else do you explain us not having dates on a Friday night? We're pretty,
smart, and single. We don't have hairy moles growing on our faces or double
chins. We get along with guys great. And our personalities are practically
sparkling."
"That doesn't mean we're old. It means we suck."
Trini snickered, "You just made me feel oh so better."
Seated in an old wooden rocking chair in the backyard, Kim gazed toward the
starry heavens on a warmer than usual Friday night. With no plans for the
evenings she was enjoying the pleasant evening weather. "You could have gone out
with Jim Rolands."
"He smells like old carpet."
"How about Tyler McKane?"
"He has the IQ of a thumb tact."
"Yeah, and we know how you like your men intelligent." Her best friends pause
spoke volumes. Kim knew she better not tread to far in that direction. It wasn't
like her dealings with the opposite sex were any better.
"How about you and Harold Myers? He's been asking about you for weeks." Kim's
mock of a gasp amused Trini to no end. That knock about 'intelligent men'
couldn't go unchallenged. "He can't take his eyes off of you."
"Eye, Trini," Kim quickly amended into the receiver. "He only has one eye."
"The patch gives him mystery. And that only means he'll see less of your
faults."
"I don't have faults. I have slight imperfections."
"And the difference is?"
"Two words for you. Wonder bra." They both got a kick out of that one. Best
friends could laugh about anything. "Maybe our standards are to high."
Trini sighed on the other end. Lying on her bed with the TV muted, she shut her
eyes to the ceiling she'd been staring at. "It's not our standards that are the
problem. It's the guys we... you know."
"Yeah, I know." Discussing Tommy and Billy meant dancing around what they each
knew the other felt. Kim felt the less said the better. "At least your
'interest' didn't disappear for two months without so much as a phone call."
"You knew where Tommy was."
"I shouldn't have to make every first move. He didn't try to contact me once. I
don't think he wanted to talk to me or anyone else."
The bitterness laced within Kim's voice wasn't hard to pick up on. Trini wished
she had the answers to make her feel better. "Tommy's a very complicated, moody
guy. You've always said that about him."
"So is Billy."
"No, Billy isn't complicated. He loves science, is incredibly shy, and sees me
as the girl who was dared to eat a bug and did it when she was a child. At least
you know Tommy is attracted to you."
"You really ate that bug?"
"Focus Kim."
"All these years I just thought you put it in your mouth and spit it out when
Zack wasn't looking."
"Don't forget I know what 'really' happened to that hamster Jason had when he
was ten. Never forget I have that knowledge."
"You've been blackmailing me for seven years with that!"
"Let's not speak of the bug incident again," Trini declared with a triumphant
smirk. "We were discussing Billy and his lack of romantic interest in me."
"I've seen how Billy looks at you. I don't think you give him enough credit.
He's definitely interested, but he's only gone out on a couple of dates and
you're very dear to him. He might be afraid of ruining your friendship if things
don't work out."
Ever since Trini returned to Angel Grove five months ago she discovered her
feelings for Billy had changed into something a little more than friendship. The
very personal letters they wrote to one another during her time at the Peace
Conference and the occasional phone calls just to keep up with what was going on
in each other's lives shifted their friendship. When they reunited it was as if
they hadn't grown up together due to how much they had changed.
Billy developed a quite confidence and thicker skin towards insults and opinions
while she was overseas. He was still as brilliant, gentle and kind as ever, but
his glasses were replaced with contacts and his style of dress turned the corner
from nerdy to casual adult.
It wasn't that Trini barely recognized him when she came home. On the contrary,
he simply matured into a handsome young man. One that she was kinda spellbound
over.
Things were different now.
They were different.
And Trini was having a very hard time dealing with that. "I've asked him out
three times in the last two months, Kim. You know me. I was upfront about
things." She thought her frankness was one of her best qualities. "He always has
an excuse why he can't go. At some point I need to just accept he doesn't see me
that way."
"Trini, I can tell he does. It's just that he's so shy around girls and with his
emotions."
"He's known me since childhood."
"And you think that makes it easier?"
If Kim had a point Trini wasn't ready to acknowledge it just yet. Her pride was
still bruised from Billy's polite refusal to go on a date with her. "So what's
up with you and our new fearless leader?"
"You know about as much as I do," she wistfully replied. "We haven't had a
private conversation since he came back. He hasn't called me or said anything at
school. It's like we're right back where we started. Just two good friends who
stare at each other, then look away, then try to pretend we weren't staring in
the first place."
"Why don't you just tell him how you feel?"
She gave a short laugh. "I'm scared that at the end of the day he doesn't feel
the same way."
"But what if he does?" Kim's silence was more eloquent than words. She didn't
have much faith in relationships working out due to her parents divorce. And
with her mom out tonight on her fifth date with the new man in her life, Trini
knew her best friend was on shaky ground.
"I've loved him for so long, Trini. And I just don't know how much longer I can
go on loving him and not seeing anything in return."
Being someone's best friend meant you had to ask the questions they didn't want
to be asked. "Are you ready to let Tommy go?"
Kim's answer nearly broke her heart. "Did I ever truly have him?"
Sitting up in bed, Trini wished she were there to give Kim a hug and tell her
everything was going to be alright. "I can tell that he loves you."
"Why can't I?"
"Because you won't allow yourself to believe it."
Though possessing a very positive outlook on life, Kim's slowly allowed doubt to
creep in where Tommy was concerned. His recent absence and lack of reaching out
to her didn't help matters one bit. "It's been over two years."
"I've known Billy since I was seven years old. You know how I feel about him
now. Love doesn't come with a timer."
"I just don't believe Tommy thinks about me?"
"You're wrong about that," a familiar voice echoed from behind her. "I think
about you all the time."
Startled, Kim stood up so fast she almost tripped over her own feet and dropped
the phone. Tommy was standing next to the garage, watching her. How long had he
been there? What had he heard her say? Her heart began beating in long
breathless strokes. The very air around her quivered with electricity.
Neither of them uttered a single word, just watched one another while the
attraction rekindled.
Trini stared at the phone. "Kim? Hey, Kim?"
Despite her heart feeling as if it was now lodged in the vicinity of her throat,
Kim tried to focus on the person repeatedly calling her name. She raised the
receiver to her ear again. "Trini, I have company. Tommy's here."
"Oh God."
"Yep."
"Call me when he leaves."
"K." Kim pressed end on the phone and then laid it down on the lawn chair. "How
much did you hear?"
Her tone was soft but insistent as her soft brown hair framed her lovely face.
Tommy couldn't take his eyes off of her. "Just what you said a moment ago. No
more than that."
Could she believe him? Did she want to? Of course she did because she knew he
wouldn't lie to her.
Kim smoothed down her skirt and took a deep, calming breath. "This is a
surprise."
"I was taking a walk to clear my head..." Tommy approached her slowly. "I ended
up here. I needed to see you. I should have come sooner."
Hope trembled through Kim. As it pertained to Tommy lately that was a foreign
emotion. "Why did you need to see me tonight of all nights?"
The unmistakable hurt in her voice wrenched his chest. The guilt at having not
treated her the way she deserved to be treated ate him up inside. Tommy knew he
had to face his greatest fear or risk losing her. Her patience wouldn't last
forever. "I miss you."
For a precious moment Kim allowed her gaze to cling to his. Something passed
between them. Something meaningful. She lifted a hand to tuck a strand of hair
behind her ear. "I haven't been hiding."
Tommy gave an understanding nod. "I know. I've been stuck in my own head for a
long time now. Losing my Green Ranger powers left me in a bad place."
"You should have let us help you." Kim's voice lowered so quietly it almost
sounded hushed. "You should have let 'me' help you."
"I wanted to."
"Then why didn't you?"
Tommy paused in the wake of her pleading eyes. He's denied her what she's earned
for so long now. Simply the truth. "Because you would have seen how hurt I was.
And not just because I lost my powers, but the whole time they were fading was
even worse. I felt like I was a liability to the team. Feeling weak and helpless
was killing me. Lord Zedd was hunting me daily. He was concentrating on me and I
couldn't stand up to him the way I wanted to." The look on her face clearly
spoke of hurt feelings. He knew he had so much to make up for. "I know I didn't
handle things the right way."
"Your pride was hurt a lot more than you were."
Kim could read him like a book. Tommy didn't always like that, but he did
appreciate it. "I know my reasons don't make much sense and I know one apology
won't make up for the way I hurt you." He erased the last few feet that
seperated them until they stood face to face. "I'm truly sorry, Kim."
In his warm brown eyes she could see the faint stirring of guilt and regret. He
deserved no less, but she loved him enough to hate its presence. Tonight he was
making an effort. And that meant so much to her. "Thank you."
Tommy exhaled the heavy breath he'd been holding deep in his chest. "I thought
about you everyday," he confessed as nervous as he's ever felt in his entire
life. This was new, uncharted territory he was entering. "I thought about
picking up the phone and calling you."
"Why didn't you?"
None of his admissions were easy ones. "I think I became so tied into being the
Green Ranger that I forgot who I was. For a while there I don't think I could
separate the two, so when I lost my powers 'I' felt lost. And I've always been a
bit of a loner. Before my parents moved to Angel Grove I never had many friends.
I wasn't anti-social as much as I just liked being alone. I'm used to being
alone when I deal with my problems."
Kim sympathized with him. The adopted son forever searching for his place in the
world. "That's kind of sad."
"Yeah, I guess it is." Hands in his pockets, he caught a glimpse of her lips
curling into a wry grin.
"So you missed me, huh?" Kim enjoyed throwing that in his face. She sidestepped
him so that he couldn't see her euphoria. "And you thought about me everyday,
right?"
Wearing a bashful grin, Tommy ducked his head away from her. She was circling
him now. He told her things he couldn't take back and now he was trapped by his
own words. "You're special to me."
"Special like Jason?"
"I don't dream about Jason in a two-piece bikini."
Kim met his loving gaze head on. "Neither do I. At least we have that in
common." When his hand reached out, wrapping round her wrist with a gentle, firm
hold, she stopped breathing.
"Did you miss me?"
He was staring at her lips and if he kissed her she knew she'd pass out. She
wanted to pass out. "Everyday."
What more could Tommy ask for? Nothing at all. The bare skin where they touched
felt like it was on fire. He released her wrist and took a step backward. She
did the same. Perhaps it was a case of too much to fast.
"I didn't see your moms car in the garage."
"She's on a date with William. It's their fifth one so far."
"You don't sound enthused."
Kim shrugged at the whole situation. "I met him three times already. He's a nice
enough guy. He's sweet to my mom. It's just..."
"He's not your dad."
Tommy could read her like a book. Kim didn't always like that, but she did
appreciate it. "My dad moved on but I don't see his girlfriend everyday. If my
mom and William get serious I'll see him all the time. It's like even though my
parents gave been divorced over a year and a half it's only now real to me."
"I know it hasn't been easy for you. The divorce I mean."
"It's never easy, but I deal. I don't have any other choice."
They walked over and sat down on the Cedar Plank bench next to the rocking
chair. Side by side minus the touching, the warm weather and progress of their
conversation thus far made for a cozy ambiance. The night sky was littered with
bright stars. Breathtaking in scope, but in Tommy's opinion they didn't compare
to the tender feel of Kim's lips. He found himself staring again and had to look
away.
Awareness of what he was doing fluttered in her stomach. "I was talking to Trini
when you arrived."
"How is she doing?"
"She's bored, just like me."
"No dates?"
She turned to him with an arched brow. "No one asked."
Ouch, Tommy thought to himself. "Maybe you're getting old."
"Trini said the same thing."
"Billy will come around. Trust me on that."
Her gossip radar blared all of a sudden. "How do you know that?" His shrug was
of the 'I have information I can't tell you about' variety. "Come on, Tommy.
Talk."
"My lips are sealed."
She whispered hauntingly, "That's no fun."
A double meaning for certain, judging by her impish expression. "Everyone's not
as confident with girls as Zack is."
"Billy doesn't have to be. He just needs to be himself. He can't keep saying no
to her dates and then stare at her when she isn't looking like all he wants to
do is kiss her. He's sending her mixed signals."
"Maybe he's never felt that way about a girl before. At least not that deeply.
He might be scared of messing it up. Believe it or not guys have insecurities
too."
"Girls rule the insecurity kingdom, Tommy. That is a well known fact."
"I'm not going to argue that. I'm just saying Billy doesn't know what to do with
these new feelings. When you're scared you're ten times more likely to mess up
then do the right thing."
"That sounds like the voice of experience talking."
Tommy stared straight ahead and then shifted his body toward her. "I stayed away
from you for two whole months because I was afraid. It nearly killed me. I
missed you so much."
Kim's heart thudded against her chest as she realized that time hadn't dimmed
his feelings for her. She lifted her hand to stroke his cheek. Her lips parted
every so slightly. "You don't have to miss me. You just have to let me in."
"From now on I promise I will."
"Good. I didn't want to have to beat up the competition."
Tommy leaned toward her, lowering his voice. "There was never any competition.
It's always been you." He brushed the softest of kisses over her lips. "It'll
always be you."
Gentle, sweet, and just this side of passionate. With a shooting star streaking
across the sky, the kiss they shared lingered on for twelve glorious seconds,
parting only when the sound of a car pulling into the garage drew their
attention. A pair of flushed smiles turned towards the offending automobile.
"It's probably time for me to go anyway," Tommy said when he found his voice
again. The taste of her lips was now burned into his subconscious. As wonderful
as their friendship was, it was no longer enough. "You are so beautiful, Kim."
No way was she getting any sleep tonight. No way at all. She was speechless and
walking on air.
Tommy and Kim stood up at the same time and were grateful for what seemed like a
short stalling period her mom was offering them. Just enough time to say their
goodbyes.
"Coming here tonight," he began while holding her eyes captive. "This was the
scariest thing I've ever done."
"Why?"
"Because you mean the world to me."
He was serious and he looked so handsome when he said it. Kim was humbled by his
sincerity. "It might help you in the future to know that you mean the world to
me too."
"I'll keep that in mind." Tommy never wanted this night to end. He smiled his
best for her. "I'm going to go home now."
He hadn't moved yet. Hadn't stopped smiling at her. Hadn't let their gaze end
just yet. "Don't be a stranger."
"Tonight was a first step."
"Tommy?"
"Yes?"
"I don't want to stop walking this time."
Backing away from the yard, he gave her a gentlemanly bow. "Goodnight
Beautiful."
"Night." He disappeared into the night as mysteriously as the first time he
entered her life. He's stolen her heart completely. She's in love for the very
first time and doesn't want to fight it anymore.
"Looks like we both had a nice time tonight," Kim's mom just had to tease a
little as she walked through the backyard toward her daughter. Tommy waved bye
to her on his way out.
"Yeah," Kim said just audible enough to hear. She grabbed the phone from the
chair, clearly walking on Cloud 9. Her mom slipped her arm over her shoulders as
they walked toward the back door. "Did you have a nice time tonight?"
"Yes. I had a really good time tonight. Very romantic."
Some situations would take more time to get used to than others, but at least
the healing process had begun. "Good. Now let's have some mom/daughter time and
eat some ice cream."
"Sounds like a plan."
The End...
for now *wink*